“When you are not optimistic, you cannot achieve anything.” Ban Ki-moon, UNSG
Long-time no write blog post. 好久不见。So many goals and I feel like I’m not reaching any of them. Fitness program has been tabled essentially for months. I’ve been having trouble focusing – not physically, but mentally – on what to focus on. Maybe I’ve spent too much effort on the big picture. Time to turn to the little things, the details that color in between the lines and make the big picture worth looking at, worth analyzing in the first place. Time to get out the crayons, the watercolors, the charcoal, the oil paints.
What details should I paint in? I think that first I need to assign myself a project. From rereading earlier posts and reviewing my sewing project ideas of the past few months (currently on hold after cutting my thumb open on broken glass two weeks ago, but alive and well in my head), I think that each detail can be a project. Projects I would like to tackle include:
1) Improve general knowledge and vocabulary at the general knowledge level in English and in German.
For starters, I’ve bought a book called Hausaufgaben für Erwachsene. Essentially a review of stuff learned in school that is now fuzzy because I didn’t major in it and therefore ignored it after the last test. It’s in German and so it can be a fun exercise in reading and making glossaries. Also, I now own Trivial Pursuit in German. Trivia is not necessarily knowledge, but perhaps a fun form of testing.
2) Be more meticulous in my own writing/translation. Writing and translation overlap, but are very different at the editing level especially. That level is something I need to figure out how to do better and more thoroughly.
Not so sure how to approach this one. I’ve ordered a book that might help at some level, but at some point it really is all in my head and brain output connection to the real world.
3) Improve specialized knowledge in a series of areas. This one is important for once I’ve garnered sufficient general knowledge to move deeper with confidence.
4) I’m really great at having a social life when I’m in a defined area with other people. I.e., structured situations with rules about when people are where and situations that have defined boundary lines about free time and work time (school, camp, conference, etc.). When I just have some time defined (i.e., working hours), but the rest is essentially free time, I’m horribly unadventurous. I take that back in part. If it’s cold outside, I avoid doing anything like the plague. If it’s warm, I do crazy things like take the train somewhere, walk 10km, climb a tree-top path for 45 min, jump a bus back to the train station, and return to my point of origin. By myself. And that’s my issue. I’m really great at keeping myself entertained. That’s usually a trait praised in children. When you’re not a child anymore, though, it doesn’t make you any friends. I’ve seen a meme floating around recently on the sentiment that there are certain friends that you can go five, ten, twenty years without seeing, run into each other randomly, and pick up exactly where you left off that day ten years ago. I’m that person. I’m ecstatic that you’ve decided to hang with me for the day and I’m okay if another ten years elapse before we see each other again. I once made a New Year’s Resolution to be more socially proactive. I’ve tried periodically, but it’s never been something I’ve been able to keep up with in the long term.
The long term is apparently not my thing, hence why I’m now going to “make friends” with the short term for the long term.